this is a very illustrative screenshot
this looks like an interesting compound exercise
To recap: I was training for a ten mile race, getting weaker and weaker, slower and slower. Since that’s the opposite of what’s supposed to happen when you put in the miles and the work, I went to the doctor. Turns out my hemoglobin levels were in the red (no pun intended) and my iron was literally undetectable. I’ve been on a punishingly high dose of iron for two months now (900mg in case you’re wondering, that’s about 56 times the daily recommended value) and I just had more blood drawn three days ago (been having a blood test every month for three months now).
I haven’t had an appointment yet with the doctor to check out the new levels, but I decided to go for a run anyway. Holy fuck, people.
I feel both angry and really happy. I’m angry that I spent so long just spinning my wheels, nearly killing myself (literally, oxygen depletion is no joke) just to run an embarrassingly slow 5K. Working so hard to be no better than your everyday fairweather sometimes-off-the-couch-jogger. On the other hand, I’m so HAPPY with how it feels to run right now. My body feels strong. Maybe not it’s strongest, but definitely <27 minute 3.5 miler strong. My Ipod was dead since I haven’t used it for ages (thanks to the running ban) but I didn’t let it be an excuse. It made the return-to-running experience all the more organic and visceral. Im still in my sweaty bra (I only got back a few minutes ago) and I just wanted to make sure I documented this small victory.
I cant stress how important it is to listen to your body. And although I know many people have a much more healthy mindset than me, the advice can’t hurt: if you’re the sort of person to always blame yourself (not trying hard enough, too wimpy etc.), you *need* to be all the more vigilant when things aren’t going so well. Maybe sometimes you AREN’T trying hard enough, but other times, you need to take stock of reality and ask yourself what is normal and what is maybe not-so-normal. Especially if you live somewhere where it is covered; you have no excuse not to check in with your doc and make sure everything is OK. ALSO: just eat well, take care of your body. Restricting is stupid and will only cut you down. Love yourselves <3